SELF DISCOVERY (Part 1) THE BEGINNING | My Journey to Peace

What happens when a bright, strawberry-blonde little girl with a princess bedroom watches her parents fall into drugs and alcohol? In this profoundly vulnerable and transformative episode of "It Begins Here," host Jillian Johnson peels back the layers of her own childhood to reveal the roots of her healing journey—and her sacred role as a healer of light workers.

Jillian shares the painful truth of becoming a "mini mom" to her younger siblings, the mental and physical abuse she endured, and the ultimate forgiveness she found for her parents. She explains why she waited until nearly 40 to have her own daughter, how her grandmother Vivi became her beacon, and why she now operates at a high frequency as an empath "on steroids."

From the invigorating power of running water to the birds that swarmed as confirmation during this recording, Jillian weaves together personal history with spiritual awakening. She introduces the Fifth Dimension, the importance of knowing what fuels you, and the necessity of facing your darkest demons to find true peace. This is not a story of victimhood—it's a story of transformation, resilience, and becoming a light for others.

Your journey to healing, forgiveness, and awakening begins here.

 Where love creates movement, and movement creates change. 

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

I became the mother. My parents got into drugs and alcohol. They got abusive. They abused me in ways that doesn't matter. Not sexually, mentally, sometimes physically. It's okay. It really is okay. And I forgive them for that. It's just part of my journey. And that's where peace comes. Being able to get through that and realize that it's part of my journey. And so I became the mini mom. And hence why I didn't have children until I was almost 40. Now you see the pattern, right? Because I had a lot of healing to do. And and I never really had a lot of close people in my life. Lisa Balon, I love you. She died young in college. Um my grandmother, Mimi. When I have soul recognition, my body shakes and I go into tears. When I miss someone, when I feel something truly, I feel it greatly. I'm an empath on steroids. Remember, I operate at a high frequency. And I'm an empath, so everything is heightened and hence why I love this running water.

SPEAKER_00 1:32

Well, Dia, and welcome to It Begins Here. It Begins Here is a podcast about my journey and path to enlightenment, healing, awareness, realizations, and all the fun little stories in between. So I welcome you to It Begins Here, a podcast.

SPEAKER_01 1:59

Isn't that one? Eleven um and um what would what many spiritual people would call an awakening and when things are just completely heightened and wanted to come through the things that I do because I really think it's important for people to understand and and it's not all about me, right? This is about obviously helping others so they can be guided and I love you all. It starts with knowing what excites you, what gives you joy, what makes you feel alive. Those types of things is what influence calmness, peace, happiness. It's like what do you do when you need to get away from everything, right? Like focus on that. What is it? What's that one thing that you just like to do to get away from it all? And for me, it's nature. I manifested this by the way. Before I came up to Woodstock, New York to meet a client, a dear, dear lovely woman. I decided to stop in Woodstock and come to this place, this magical place with running water. I have a room. It walks right out to this. It's just so breathtaking and beautiful. And I manifested this. This whole experience. I requested to the universe what I desired. And it's here. And I've I've talked about this before in other podcasts and Facebook. But I want us talk more about why, right? And I know you're listening for that reason, and you should. You really should, because this is with authenticity right here. So this running water just fuels me. Oh my god, when I went first went to Niagara Falls, oh my god, I was like, yeah, let's do this. I didn't even need coffee. It was so invigorating. It's just and I love putting my bare feet to the ground, on the grass, in the mud, in the water, whatever. Like bringing back that inner child, and and I just got a car flash its lights at me for no reason. There's confirmation, right? And this is the time to pursue the quote unquote awakening. Because things are moving forward. A new dimension is here. It's called the fifth dimension. And some of you know a lot about it, and some of you know little, and that's okay, because that's where I come in. It's a beautiful thing and I want to share it with the world. And why this water accelerates me and gets me all excited is because I operate at a very high frequency than most. I know this. And there are others like me out here. They're called the light workers. And those light workers, I'm the healer of the light workers, by the way. I'm Jillian, nice to meet you. If this is the first time. So I'm the healer of the light workers. And I heal anyone that I come in contact with, especially that I obviously there's purpose with it, right? And there's what that's where reciprocity comes in, which a lot of people don't understand at all. They don't understand reciprocity. You have to give to receive, but this it's the way that you give and receive. That's very important to realize and to really think about. Because if you're doing it out of ego, which is there's a lot I've had a lot of depth of the ego. And what do I mean by that? Death of the ego is when you're like, this doesn't define me anymore. This doesn't have to define me anymore. They don't have to define me anymore. What people say is not the truth and always the truth. You have to use discernment, you have to use your intuition for these things. This is what I teach, right? This is why I do the things I do. This is why we've created Pili, P Y L I community. Like we're trying to bring in the best of the best there for healers and those that are really interested because there's a lot of healing that needs to be done before you can even handle Ply for many. For many. It's too much, right? I'm always jumping ahead. You're gonna see that. Yep, bird flies past me as confirmation. Oh, three of them. Beautiful. It's such a blessing.

SPEAKER_02 7:21

Oh, and here they come again. Oh my god, thank you.

SPEAKER_01 7:28

But you have to focus on the things that make you passionate, the things that rev your engine, the things that it's it's important and you have to do some healing. And I'm gonna do a video of what I do in the morning. And I think that that's gonna be very advantageous for all of you to see what I do. Um but I'm here to teach you. I'm ready now. I think I have been all along. I know I've tried in my endeavors, whoever I come in contact with, whoever hires me, whoever I employ, whoever I work with, right? I bring that to everyone that I encounter. And if you do that with me and you're in your authentic self, your true self, I'll help you. Just by hanging out. I kid you not. I'm full of love. And I can't wait for you to discover who I truly am. Um but again, we have to go back within. It always has to be within. You have to figure out what passion, remember, what excites you, right? So let's get back to that. Now, there's black and white, there's duality. So you have to think about what are your darkest demons. You have to think about those things. Write it down, man. It really helped me. Journal the shit out of it. Journal the shit out of it. Pick it up. Wherever you are, whatever you gotta do. Jot it down because you're gonna be able to process it. See, I can do many, I can process in so many facets because this is where my journey kind of began. When I was graduating from college at UMass Dartmouth, I knew I wanted to get into accounting because it was easy for me. I understand my Gemini moon mind, I understand complexities. I'm very analytical, I'm a Scorpio son, remember, so I just can figure shit out pretty quickly. My mind works very quickly. And this is where it all began. I'll go back in other instances to my childhood to elaborate more there, but dealing with organizations, dealing with humans. I just saw oh my god, and they're coming back around. It's like where the the birds are practicing where I am right now. That was beautiful. That was so beautiful. They're like swarming around and then they let they came back as a perfect V. It was beautiful. Oh, so beautiful. Anyway, so my you know, learning about all those organizations, learn how learning how humans think, process, work has led me to a lot of knowledge. And I just would love to sit in a corner and watch people, and I do that so well. And people just stare at me because my frequency is so high, I can get people like I'm just too overwhelming. Just too overwhelming for them. And they don't understand it. And it's okay. I get it now, I totally get it now. For me, it's frequency. So, anyway, going back to learning about businesses, I created businesses. It gave me the confidence and the knowledge to then create myself. And I've created now four, which is wild. Four businesses now. And many of you know what they are, right? Simply J, Peely Wellness. It begins here a podcast, which is what you're listening to, and thank you. And I have a holding company, real estate. And then my community and my connections, right? Peely is my community behind the scenes. We don't again, I'm not I have not been one to overly promote myself. What you see on social media is my content, but my team, AK, is doing it. She's a rock star. Shout out to you, love. I'm not on social media as much as I look, by the way. That's part of my sanity. I'm not on electronics as much as I used to. I make sure with my team at Simply J we, you know, because it's I have three computer screens. When I'm working in Simply J mode, it's wild. But I operate in such a high frequency that I can do it. You know, I can plot through that shit. And I I used to work 10, 12 hours in front of a computer like that. So imagine my capacity, right? And not tooting my own horn, but it sounds like it, because yeah, I must come across as pompous, but I'm confident now. I know who the hell I am and I know how to seek truth in others. And it's really a blessing. It really is a blessing. So building these businesses obviously has built wealth and confidence, and man, life ebbs and flows. Life totally ebbs and flows. We had some tough times at one point, and I was ready to be like, Why am I doing this? And I had to bring it. I had to bring it to my team. Like, why are we doing this? There's been so much trials and tribulations. It doesn't seem to be appreciated. Simply, Jay, we get beat up all the time. You know, now that you have the knowledge and then you're trying to provide that service to people, they and that don't understand it. And I I say this to a client, one of our clients I just talked to yesterday. I told them, I said, thank you for using the financial data. Like, thank you for using it. Like, what the fly and hell, man. We do this for a reason, and a lot of clients just don't use it. And we're like, okay. And then they'll call us out when we don't have updated financials, and we're like, well, we've been asking you for bank statements for the last three months. So if you could provide those for us, that would be great. So it's funny, every time we have a client that like claims that's we missed something or what have you, we're like, well, we have all the data. We have every meeting we ever had, we have notes from every meeting we ever had, we have emails, we have calendars, we have everything. So if you ever come after us, we have everything about you, by the way. So be careful. Like, and I don't want to operate like that either. That's not my purpose. I don't want that bullshit, nor will I have it. Because of this reason, because of this silly reason, but it's not our intentions, you know. We have to we have to help each other out. We're here as a unity, we're here as one. We are not anti-anyone. But if we have to set boundaries, we terminate clients who don't give us the information. We're like, yeah, well, what are we doing here? Like, seriously, what are we doing here? Please help us. Because you're just you're just paying us, and we're like have a monster list of action items and we don't know what to do. Right? And we're learning to get through that. It's been a challenge, but we've we're a freaking machine. And yeah, we're we're only a machine as us, as a group. It's powerful. And I and Pee Lee's the same way. I have a power team there. It's a power of six. We're in nine countries, ten I think we're almost at eleven now. It's such a blessing. It's such a freaking blessing. And I'm learning so much, and I have so much to give. I have so much to give. But you have to go within, you have to know your demons, and you have to know what fuels you and you have to process that, and you have to relive your life to where you are now. You have to do it. That's how you heal. You gotta process through that. And so here we go. Are you ready? Are you ready to step into basically how I've come to where I am? And there's other things that are coming out, by the way. That will come. Yes. But let's go back even further from college, right? Let's go back to when I was young. I was a ball of light. My grandfather Bumby, he said, your smile lights up the room. He's like it really does. It lights up the room. I'm getting emotional just thinking about it. Um my grandparents have passed, so it's a little emotional, right? Anyway, you're gonna feel that. You have to feel all of that too, right? You have to feel it. I'll feel it out in a bit. But um, you have to feel everything.

SPEAKER_03 16:59

I feel it all, I feel it all. Going so what, the wings away. Yes, okay, okay.

SPEAKER_01 17:09

I'm probably not saying the right words, I'm just saying the words that I want to hear. I do that too. Um, so way back when I was a little, I was a strawberry blonde, hence where the red hair comes from. Most of my life it was more light brownish with really red highlights. My hair just changes color, my eyes have changed color. They used to be hazel, and then they became green, and then they changed to blue. Um I am a unique individual. Like many others. We're all unique if we're thinking of it in unity, right? So here's the deal. My childhood at first was beautiful. My parents worked opposite jobs, time jobs, so mom worked in the morning, dad worked at night, or might have been vice versa. Either way doesn't matter. And I just got their love and attention, and my life was pretty freaking amazing for the first five years. Pretty freaking amazing. Full of love. My parents were very young. I was at the wedding in my mom's belly. She was 19, 20 when she had me. And I had the poster princess bedroom, right? I had the bed with the canopy and the castle, the strawberry shortcake home, and I had a beautiful life. I have a beautiful life, I had a beautiful life. And I'm saying that in all different aspects because there's parts of you that you're gonna have to learn to let go. Yes. People, places, things, they no longer serve you. And it's okay. And so I think the crux of it all is my parents decide to have more children. I think they just were having fun, quite frankly, and my sister and my brother came along. They're seven and nine years younger than me. And I send them love. My brother is I'm closest to my brother if I have to admit. My brother and sister are closer to each other naturally, because they're closer in age. But that dynamic has always been an interesting one. Because I became the mother. My parents got into drugs and alcohol. They got abusive. They abused me in ways that doesn't matter. Not sexually, mentally, sometimes physically. It's okay. It really is okay. And I forgive them for that. It's just part of my journey. And that's where peace comes. Being able to get through that and realize that it's part of my journey. And so I became the mini mom, and hence why I didn't have children until I was almost 40. Now you see the pattern, right? Because I had a lot of healing to do. And and I never really had a lot of close people in my life. Lisa Balong, I love you. She died young in college. Um my grandmother, Mimi. When I have soul recognition, my body shakes and I go into tears. When I miss someone, when I feel something truly, I feel it greatly. I'm an empath on steroids. Remember, I I operate at a high frequency. And I'm an empath, so everything is heightened, and hence why I love this running water. And hopefully Brian on our team. He'll do a great job, I'm sure, at handling it. But um it charges me. It really does charge me. So you just get to realize all the things of how you transform, how you learn, how you go through your journey. There's a lot of power in it, but my grandmother was my beacon. Um, we thankfully moved in with her and my grandfather Bumpy. We lived on the first floor on Brock Avenue. They lived on the second. And uh in between then, my my memory is not really. There, to be perfectly honest. Um, I don't really remember much up until like five. And I remember having a birthday party where there were tons of clones and why I hated clowns for so long. I'm probably over that, thank you. I don't really have any fear, honestly. Not even fear of death, because death is an illusion, by the way. Um, so is money and so is time. If you get to understand those three things, then you're you're golden. You're welcome. So it stems from having this childhood and going through this story, and this is my story, and it's mine only, and my energy is my energy, and my energy only. I'm not gonna teach you how to have my energy that is of mine. That's not for anyone else. But I will teach you how to get to a place of balance, as many before me have taught. Rumi, Jesus, Buddha, many, many, many, many, many, many, many others. All the goddesses. There's a few that I love, love, love, love. Hectate, ISIS. Yep, that's right. Thank you. You know who I'm talking to. And I also love Venus. Of course I do. She's she's very prominent in my chart, by the way. So, yeah. I had a couple of people read my chart and they got a glimpse of my beautiful life. It is a beautiful life. But it's a humbling life. It's a simple life. I don't need much of anything. But I'm here to teach. And I'll grow. I'll grow too. And you'll hopefully decide to join me and grow with me. Um, if you try to copy or do anything negative with any of this information, that's commer on your ass, by the way. You've been you've been getting it, I know you have. I've been riding the ripple, just like there's always karmic justice that's gonna come back here, and I don't wish it on you, it's just part of the universe. That's how shit works. Especially if you're going within and looking at yourself in the mirror, you wouldn't want to do that to yourself, right? No, you wouldn't. So there comes my queen of swords, I guess, right? I've learned to not care. I'm not gonna be evil and angry, but I just won't feel it. I'll just walk away. I have bigger things to do here, and I am so blessed, so so damn blessed. And I am so blessed that you are willing to join me. It's an honor, it's an absolute honor, and I'm not looking for adoration or glorification. It's fucking bullshit and doesn't belong in spirituality. Fuck that noise. Um, I'm just gonna be here for me to learn about me and give more of me through universe and mother Gaia to you. And I love you. Love and light. It begins here. Thanks for listening. Love and light to all you beautiful human.