SELF DISCOVERY (Part 3) It's All About Me!: Why Putting Yourself First is Not Selfish.

What happens when a healer finally turns her gifts inward and makes her life about herself? In this raw, vulnerable, and spiritually expansive episode of "It Begins Here," host Jillian Johnson declares a radical truth: for the first time in her life, she is making it all about her—and it's not selfish. It's necessary.

Jillian opens up about the past two weeks of intense realizations, removing people from her life, and stepping fully into her identity as an ascended master. She explains what "ascending" means to her—jumping timelines, interacting in different dimensions, and recognizing that she has done this before as a Life Path 11. She shares the hard truth that she's never truly felt unconditional love, and that instability in her childhood led her to spend her life building foundations for herself.

This episode is a call to action for anyone who has forgotten themselves while caring for others. Jillian offers a simple, profound practice: slow down. Go within. Get silent. The answers, the healing, and the ascension are all inside you. Your journey from healing others to healing yourself begins here.

 Where love creates movement, and movement creates change. 

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Right now, to be perfectly honest, it's all about me. It is all about me because the first time in my life, I'm making it all about me. And I know sounds absolutely selfish, but my life has come to this point for this very moment to have this very recognition that it's all about me. And I've worked very hard for everything I have and possess and embody for everyone of everything that I am. It took me a long damn time for me, but I shouldn't say that. I've done this before. Um, my life path numbers 11. I am an ascended master. I've done this before. And I've ascended before. And I'm doing it right now. And what does that mean, Jillian? What do you mean by ascending? Welcome, Dia, and welcome to It Begins Here. It begins here as a podcast about my journey and path to enlightenment, healing, awareness, realizations, and all the fun little stories in between. So I welcome you to It Begins Here, a podcast. Let's just start with let's just start with a big inhale and exhale, right? Let's do it. In through the nose until you can't breathe in no more.

SPEAKER_01 2:32

And out through the mouth.

SPEAKER_00 2:46

It's been it's been a couple of weeks of realizations, um awareness of my own healing, which has all been a blessing. Right, we're all healing in some form or another. I hope. I hope we're all healing. I know I am. I don't. My God. Oh, where do we where do we begin? Where to begin? It begins here. That's right. Um, I think the first thing out of the gate is holding our ourselves accountable for our own healing, especially being a healer. Especially being a healer. And I'm a healer 24-7. Like I don't shut it off. I mean, that's my challenge, right? Because I can feel, I can understand, I listen, I can communicate, I'm aware, everything is open, everything's fluid. Um, I can talk to anyone about anything and be present. And that is powerful in and of itself. Okay, and I hope that for all of you. Um, but as a healer, and I do this with my daughter, I do this with family that are still present. Um I do this with friends, colleagues, staff. I'm constantly in healing mode, whether it's healing myself or healing them, just by listening. And it's like, how can I help? How can I serve, right? That's how I show up 24-7. People, strangers, anyone I interact with, this is just me. And it took me a lot to get here. Um, and I've been doing it my entire life. I've been doing it my entire life. I've been challenged with not being loved, with not being supported. Right? I mean, looking back, that's what I've been doing for this past couple of weeks now. It started around mid-April, and this has been going on, and it's now May 12th of 2026. And my own healing has brought me to this point. Period. And how I do that, I talk about this all the time, right? It's just slowing down to realize what's on your mind, what's in your environment, being completely aware of what's going on.

SPEAKER_01 6:07

And I started this journey eleven years ago to really, right?

SPEAKER_00 6:14

And started with meditation for me. I can't, I can't. Whatever it is for you, that's what it is for me. To the point where, yes, of course, I I could utilize it and and do it, but I can meditate at a drop of a hat, and I don't even have to meditate at this point. I just sit in silence. It's not going deep meditation, right? And I've talked about the different layers of this and how I process that. Um But being able to do this and healing, I've had some mega realizations. I've removed a lot of people from my life to the point where I have become the hermit and only interacting when I need to. Because right now, to be perfectly honest, it's all about me. It is all about me. Because the first time in my life, I'm making it all about me. And I know, sounds absolutely selfish, but my life has come to this point for this very moment, to have this very recognition that it's all about me. And I've worked very hard for everything I have and possess and embody for everyone of everything that I am. It took me a long damn time. Well, for me, uh, but I shouldn't say that. I've done this before. Um, my life path numbers 11. I am an ascended master. I've done this before. And I've ascended before. And I'm doing it right now. And what well, what does that mean, Jillian? What do you mean by ascending? I'm jumping timelines, I'm interacting in different dimensions. Right now, my 3D dimension is just like it doesn't have to be so catastrophic, people, okay? It definitely does not have to be so catastrophic. Your awakening does not have to, like everything doesn't have to go down burning in fire. Give me a break. I don't believe that at all. And I've done it with my divorce. It doesn't need to go down in absolute chaos. That's not how I operate. That's not how it needs to operate. And the when you realize that, that's empowering. It is the little things, it's the subtleties. I mean, the big realization, um, again, going back and looking back at my life leading up to this point, living for everyone else but myself up until like recent. I gotta build this to do that, I gotta do this to do that, I gotta be there for them, for this, I gotta, you right? And it's like you forget yourself. What the flying heck? And it's all good. I don't have any regrets, by the way. It's led me to this point. I've always acted in love. I've always seen people for who they are meant to be, even when they're not there yet.

SPEAKER_01 10:05

I see it. Confirmation. I just heard it. I always see it. And I can help people recognize that. That's my gift.

SPEAKER_00 10:28

I am literally, if you let me, I will be your tower moment. And I'm doing that, right? I'm doing it for people without them even realizing I do it as a service for people. Yes, there are tools I can use: caromancy, oracle, tarot, channeling. Yes, I'm a walking channeler.

SPEAKER_01 10:55

But I've been doing it for myself the last two weeks.

SPEAKER_00 11:02

And I know that people are upset and they don't like me or they think I'm the Antichrist. Well, I'm not. I'm the furthest from it. But I do have polarity. I can go into the depths in the darkness, and I can come right back out into the light. That's what I'm doing. That's what's going on right now. There's a past life, there's a past version of me that no longer exists or serves my higher purpose. That's really the recognition. So leading all the way up to this point of you know, my childhood and the challenges that it that it I faced, and it's fine. It's all good. Not ever having enough, not ever being enough, not ever being loved. I know Snickers, oh, yes, you were loved all. It's like not really. Because if I was loved and had self-worth, I would be a huge powerhouse than what I am now. Because I I just have I'm a big ball of love, and I can create and I'm creative as shit, and I'm connected, and I can talk and communicate and collaborate, I can do all of the things. And I've always been like, why? Why why do you hold yourself back? And the realization of why has come to me, right? It's just instability. I've been building foundations after foundations for my own self because I never had it growing up. I didn't have solid foundations growing up, and that just wasn't my world. And I was supposed to live that to then pull myself out of it. By the way, I've done no counseling.

SPEAKER_01 13:15

It's all been me. No counseling. I've had none.

SPEAKER_00 13:22

Do I believe in it? Sure. I think it's healthy to talk about how you feel and such with strangers that you trust and you feel aligned with? Yes. I interpret those as friends and loved ones. But we are all human and we all do make mistakes, and we are fallible. So I don't I forgive everyone and anything that's hurt me, harmed me, has not supported me, has talked nev negatively about me. Whatever. I don't give a shit anymore. That's in the past. I'm moving forward. But you have to go back to move forward, right? You have to process your life till this point of what has it taught you? Well, it's taught me the realization that I love me. It's taught me the realization that I love the world. I love humans. As messed up and excuse my French, fucked up as we are, I do love them. But setting boundaries, right? Removing that which does not serve you. And I'm ready to move into the next phase life that I have already created for myself. I've been manifesting stuff for years. It's coming. Because it's gonna meet my higher purpose, which I know what it is, is I'm a healer. Going back to holding myself accountable, you have to heal. You can't be a healer that's not healing yourself. I see it. I'm not involved with that anymore. I've met those people. You can't be a healer. You're gonna heal yourself. Hold yourself accountable. I do. I'm healing. By going within, by realizing the things that I need to realize. I've never truly been in love. I've never really truly felt unconditional love. It's been a while. It's been a while. When I did those humans have left me. And not in the 3D sense, they have left me. I'm looking forward to being loved. I am I am already loved, by the way. I've created that love. I have a few very close friends. I have a beautiful daughter. I even love her dad. And I love myself. But I had to go backwards to move forward. And so I've learned a lot. In these past two weeks, I've journaled a lot. Um I know my purpose. I'm not ready to share that with everyone. I'm already doing it, quite frankly. I've been doing it all along. Um, but I am a healer of healers. I am your waking tower moment. When you're ready, come see me. Schedule an appointment. I'll help you with that. When you're ready. Um, I've done it in my coaching sessions. I've done it with staff members, I've done it with clients, I've done it with many people I come in contact with and I just lead with love. You know, it's we have to be a mirror for each other. We have to have these realizations of what we truly need to see. Um and I've been, I'm intuitive, very intuitive. I've been I've been creating before it's been needed. I'm creating things before they're getting things in position this whole time has been leading up to this moment. Everything I've built has value, has purpose. Everyone I connect with, truly deeply connect with, has been profound. I see my imprint, I see the imprint of others. I've seen the lessons that others have taught me. Um left, and I've set boundaries, right? It's like everyone you come across is there to teach you something. Don't ever take that for granted. I don't. And you know, I truly think there are some people in my past that are meant to resurface in whatever capacity. A lot of them have been resurfacing to apologize, quite frankly. And that's been really lovely. And there's more to come. And if I owe you that same, I will. I have been, I've done it. But I gotta set my boundaries too. And I thank those that have set them and walked away, thank you. I thank those that um have taught me lessons and I've walked away, thank you. I thank those that come back to talk. Thank you. There's a lot of things that are left unsaid, and I don't think we should leave them unsaid. And there's definitely one person in particular that's being brought to my mind that I see everywhere, and I know that they're coming back into my life. Um they know who they are.

SPEAKER_01 20:33

And I welcome it because there's a lot that has not been said. And I want to say a lot to you. I want to be more open. God, this is hard.

SPEAKER_00 20:58

I'm not doing this for a pity party, by the way. I'm doing this because I know that this is gonna heal others. That when you hear this, it's gonna heal and help you. Body recognition just by saying it. Oh god, I love it. I'm so blessed. I'm so blessed for my connectivity. I'm so blessed for all of you that are listening, and I hope it's helping you. This is as real as it gets, right? As real as it gets. This is healing while healing yourself. I mean, it's just a continuous fluid giving. It's a beautiful thing. It really is. It's an absolute beautiful thing, and I um know that it's helping. I know that it's helping you many of you out there. I know it is. And if I've canceled something, if I've not shown up, it's for a reason. It's for an absolute reason, so I can get to this point. Because I'm meant to do so much healing for others. I'm already doing it. I'm healing myself. Um so take the time to go inward. Take the time to just, you know, I'm waking up in the early wee mornings with the moon. And I'm not saying you have to do that, but that's my time of like realization and recognition, sitting with my concoction that's not coffee, but I pretend it is. And um sipping that and just sitting in my thoughts. And if you need inspiration, ask the universe.

SPEAKER_01 22:59

Show me what I need to see. Tell me what I need to hear.

SPEAKER_00 23:08

Cause it'll show you, it'll present to you, and you might not like it at first, and it's okay. It's okay. You'll get used to it, you'll get past it, you're gonna heal. It's all within us. Yes, I'm here. I'm here to use my voice, I'm here to create my magic, I'm here to support and serve. And I'm telling you, it's also so within you. And you're gonna realize this by listening to me. I'm here for ya. That's what I'm doing. This I'm here for ya. Go within. Think about what you're learning for the week and come back. Come back to we're here every Monday.

SPEAKER_01 24:06

We're not perfect either, but we're here to support.

SPEAKER_00 24:12

I think if we all just slowed down I've been saying this all along, if we all just slow down and breathe and take in what's around us, what's in our minds, how we speak, that's gonna catalyst us all forward. That's gonna propel us all forward.

SPEAKER_01 24:38

We have to slow down, not speed up.

SPEAKER_00 24:43

It's funny, I've literally watched my entire world change. It's so rapidly. My world is changing so rapidly. I mean, just over the past three years alone, the change that I've endured.

SPEAKER_01 25:01

I hope you're watching and it inspires you. Let's not stay stuck.

SPEAKER_00 25:08

Let's keep moving.

SPEAKER_01 25:10

Yes, everything's fluid, but there's no rush. There's no plowing through. It's going with the flow.

SPEAKER_00 25:23

And I've built the foundations to allow me to do this. I've done the hard work. I've worked hard all my life. Everything I have, I've created. I've done it all myself. My healing, my realizations. And it just started with silence.

SPEAKER_01 25:47

And I know I've talked about this, but that's how important it is to go within, to get silent.

SPEAKER_00 25:57

How much however how much time you have? I do it right before Abby gets off the bus. I have like 15 minutes of myself just to I do it at the wee hours of the morning.

SPEAKER_01 26:12

I'm constantly doing it.

SPEAKER_00 26:14

I'll even block out everyone around me and do it. Just to process, just to be present. That's what it truly means to be present. Looking out with that knowledge, utilizing that to propel you forward of what you've learned, the realization, then comes the action, right? The realization, the awareness, the fluidity, and the doors open. Everything just opens. Communications flow in. Money flows freely. Things work out. Businesses thrive. The team thrives. Life thrives. Change happens. You get stronger, you get wiser, you become more patient. You get away, you take vacations more often, you enjoy the little things. You admire the little ladybug that crosses your path. You admire someone admiring you. You hear the things that you might have not heard before. Like the owl that is hooting. I could hear it from inside my house. You don't, you know, you get to see the beautiful sky. You get to see everything that's so beautiful around you. There's so much to discover. There's so much that is quote unquote hidden, but actually in plain sight. Once you're connected, once you feel it, once you're awakened, quote unquote, right? You can't not see it. You see it all. I see it all. I see it all. The wings away, the wings away. It's um it's a beautiful thing. It's an absolute beautiful thing. And I wish that for all of you listening. I wish that for the world. I can't wait to contribute more. I can't wait to serve more. Doors are opening for me. Opportunities are here and coming, and everything is just flowing. And I'm just so damn blessed. And I'm so grateful, and I'm so lucky.

SPEAKER_01 29:03

And I wish that for all of you. And it will happen. Absolutely. We all deserve it. Love and light.

SPEAKER_00 29:14

It begins here. Thanks for listening. Love and light to all you beautiful human.