Everyone Has Ego: Why It's Ruining Relationships

What does it truly mean to love again after experiencing disappointment, betrayal, or emotional pain?

In this heartfelt episode of It Begins Here, Jillian Johnson explores the deeply personal journey of rebuilding trust, reconnecting with yourself, and discovering what healthy, unconditional love really feels like.

Through stories of self-discovery, intuition, and personal healing, Jillian shares how protecting your peace, setting boundaries, and embracing vulnerability can transform not only your relationships but also the relationship you have with yourself.

She also reflects on the importance of discernment, emotional awareness, grounding practices, and choosing connections that genuinely support your growth instead of draining your energy.

Whether you're healing from heartbreak, navigating new relationships, or simply learning to value yourself more deeply, this episode offers encouragement to trust your inner wisdom and remember that lasting love begins within.

Because every new chapter…

It Begins Here.

 Where love creates movement, and movement creates change. 

Transcript

SPEAKER_02 0:00

It's important for you to learn yourself, period, and not just listen to other people. Just be careful. I mean, that there's your another test on discernment, right? But I'm not saying everybody's out to get you. That's not what I'm saying. Some people are selfish and have their own intentions. Some people, you know, want to truly help. But everyone has ego. Most humans have ego. It's unfortunate because it's really diminished relationships in my life. Where you're like, I see the good in this person, but they're not there yet.

SPEAKER_00 0:45

Yet.

SPEAKER_02 0:48

Yep, I do.

SPEAKER_01 0:52

And uh, and welcome to It Begins Here. It begins here with a podcast about my journey to enlightenment, feeling, awareness, reality, and all the stories of the day. Welcome to It Begins Here Podcast. Oh dear.

SPEAKER_02 1:22

Um welcome back if this is your uh not your first time, and then welcome um if it is. Thanks for joining us. Um, I know this topic is gonna hit more more humans than I think I realize, um, but I was definitely called to talk about this. And can I just say being on social media is the most vulnerable thing you could ever do, and talking about and and removing the mask from yourself in front of everyone is the most un most vulnerable thing you will ever do. There's a bird flying by my window for confirmation. Um this isn't a power thing, me and what I'm doing. I yeah, I'm a born leader. If you haven't noticed that, then yeah, no shit. Um I just want to clarify that I'm being called to say that. Um, this is connect connectivity, this is connecting, so I at a global level may heal others. And I'm not talking about oh, I'm not gonna go get into it. I'm talking about saying something that's gonna resonate with you and make you think. And not in the crazy, crazy talk, not in the cyclical talk, or maybe even trigger you to figure out that you are in a cycle. Just listen in. I know that there are little triggers going on, and in the tower card, which I so resonate with, and I do embody it, and it's not to be feared. We all have to have our moments of like realization. Tower moments aren't meant to be so catastrophic as far as I'm concerned. I've had major, major realizations in the last bird confirmation pass window again. That's a major awakenings, realizations, um, deaths, ego deaths. Like, I do this more often than I think others because that is what I'm supposed to experience in this life. But I could be wrong, and by the way, I always can take back what I say and change my mind because I have free will, because I'm also learning as well, and I'm here to talk about things so that they're said, they're known, they're discussed. I am so looking forward to the the moment where I can talk to other religion-based um belief systems. It's coming. Um right now, those that I wish to talk to are a little closed up. I can see it in their body language. Because I've had some crazy realizations in uh some past posts that I've done. You know, literally just realizing why I self-sabotage. Like I never really understood, like, what the hell is the root cause of me just being so anti-me? You know? And I learned a bunch of shit that is kind of icky, and I think more ick is coming. Unfortunately, I think more things can be revealed. By the way, I know most of them. I don't even think these people that are involved realize that I know most of them, but I do. Um it's gonna be wild to just hear other stories. 411, as I said that. Yep, more information's coming. Um, I'm here to tell a story. I'm here to be vulnerable to do so. I'm here to help lead the evolution of healing and what that looks like. I'm here to be the bridge between the two worlds. Um, there's a lot of talk about that. I know that sounds a little crazy to some, but there is a new world upon us energetically, whether you want to call it a 5D or whatever you want to call it, right? Um for me, I and this may sound egotistical, but I am five to ten steps ahead of what I'm discussing. Um, I want that to be known to show you how vulnerable I'm being on the mistakes and the conversations and the thought processes, right? It's like I'm doing that for a reason. The progress is not easy, but it doesn't have to be so catastrophic. Your life doesn't have to completely fall apart and the house goes down burning. I mean, that's that's a mindset, that's a mindset shift, and that's what I'm showing. To be able to go through and love again. That's what I want to talk about today. To learn through, to learn how to love again. Because when you've been deceived by so many people, yes, there's been deception, you can't deny it. Or even whether it's intentional or not, let me just clarify that, right? I'm dealing with some intentional shit energetically. I'm like, I'm connected, I know what's going on, I'm intuitive as shit. I'm not stupid, I know things are happening and the universe talks to me. So, and I love how it tests me too. I'm like, oh, hmm. Always challenge yourself, always test yourself, by the way. I love, love doing tests on myself, on my mindset. To be like, do I really need a down day to rest? Or is this something that's energetically insufficient? Right? I'm learning. Um, so love. After I've gone on to that little tangent to clarify some things, love. I have never allowed myself love. I have never, because I have truly never been loved without conditions. And that's just truth. Um, and I know there's more of you out there. This is who I'm reaching, especially inner child wounds. Because the veil's off. I had significant um the curtain's fallen, forgive me. The veil's strong, the curtain's fallen. Um when the curtain falls, you see things that you're like, oh god, oh yeah, right? Well, when you're intuitive, you already see that, and then the the curtain falling is just confirmation. That's a nugget right there. Um so test your intuition, and you're gonna have to learn how to navigate your intuition when you are dating. You're gonna have to check in with your body, have the feels, go through the emotions, right? The feels are always so important. I talk about this all the time. You have the feelings, you gotta, you know, what is this about? And you gotta process why am I feeling this way? Is my body reacting for a reason? Or is it things that I should be fearing that are not good for me? Right. And so navigating yourself. It is important to do that for yourself, and it's important for you to learn yourself, period, and not just listen to other people. Because be careful. I mean, there there's your another test on discernment, right? Um, and I'm not saying everybody's out to get you. It's not what I'm saying. Some people are selfish and have their own intentions, some people, you know, want to truly help. But everyone has ego. Most humans have ego. It's unfortunate because it's really diminished relationships in my life where you're like, mmm, I see the good in this person, but they're not there yet.

SPEAKER_00 11:17

Yet. I still have faith in every human.

SPEAKER_02 11:21

Yep, I do. Mm-hmm. And uh it's gonna be interesting to learn how to love again. And how do you do that, right? How do you learn how to love again? It's a massive mindset. It's it's going through and realizing when someone approaches you with let's let's call it an offering. They approach you with an offering. Like, can I take you out on a date? Um They're like, Can I bring you the world and I That would be awesome. Like, how? Yeah, let's let me see. How do you do that? Um but how do you learn how to love when someone approaches you? You're gonna have to use that good old fashioned discernment. Right? Use your intuition. Your body's reacting for a reason. And it's the human that makes you feel at peace. At least for me. It's that human that makes me feel at peace. Makes me feel seen. When you talk about, you know, anything and everything. It's a nice thing. And there are humans out there that have this and I'm so happy for them. Oh my god. Because we need more of that. We definitely need more of that. And you also have to learn, like myself, on protecting your energy, protecting your peace, right? So I'm gonna describe what this would look like for myself. I know there's more out there that would um agree. Um, it is peace, it's all about the peace. I want my sanctuary to be like to run and hide with and be like, oh my god, this is what's my day. And you know, I'm I'm a healer. Um financial wealth consciousness, yes. But I'm also a healer with my voice and my singing abilities and God, my energy, and we have to protect it. We have to protect it. And how do you protect it? Well, go hug a tree for the love of God. All that's holy. Go hug a tree. Put your feet to the bare ground, go swimming, do all the things, dance, do all the things that it seems like society is it's it's leaving, it's escaping society. Quite frankly, do all those things. Go dance in the rain, go have fun, go watch a really sad movie and cry your freaking eyes out, like whatever you gotta do, you know? Because not everything is joy, and I get it. Not everything is rose-colored and happiness, I get it. But you have to find it, and you're gonna have to go through the motions of clearing out your shit to get there. I felt like I've been uh a sucked out balloon my entire life, a deflated balloon my entire life. And now it's like there were bits of happiness, don't get me wrong. That was because I was traveling for a month. Right? Oh dedicating so much energy energy to building and creating for me for many years it was for others. Now it's for me. And opportunities are here and more to come. And that'll be a wonderful thing. But love takes time, it shouldn't be impulsive. And if it is, then make sure you take time to go at it slowly. I've learned so much. I'm so blessed. I've learned so much about unconditional love. And I'm here obviously to help those who need to discover this as well. And it truly is going within. It truly is. So the secret sauce is not that secret. Just so you know. I mean, trust me, I have other things I want to create, but um a key to healing is reconnecting with yourself and this planet.

SPEAKER_03 17:09

Cleaning out your vessel. And that's pretty much it.

SPEAKER_02 17:19

And when I say connecting with the earth, you're connecting with yourself and therefore connecting with others. We are all one. So that's why I hesitate when people like sell you something, right? Well, I can do this and I can do that, and it's like, oh good god. I know you're trying to help. I know.

SPEAKER_03 17:43

But let's not overcomplicate this shit. It's not worth it.

SPEAKER_02 17:55

Bird confirmation. Everything's quite simple. Um, but regardless, if you want to do one-on-one coaching with me, I'm here. But I'm collaborating. Courses I'm building are gonna be collaborations with others. I'm here to collaborate. I've done enough building on my own. That's the purpose here. Collaboration. Right? That's my purpose. To collaborate and to lead. Check check. What's next? I want everyone to feel that way. I want everyone to feel that. To be like, holy cow, I am freaking cool as shit. It's not an ego thing, it's not a power thing. It's love for oneself. Like, man, I just did that. I love getting messages from friends, uh, listeners, um, subscribers of seekers of Pele, P Y L I. I just love hearing, like, man, I did this.

SPEAKER_03 19:13

I'm like, yes, yes, change it up. Switch it up. Do the things.

SPEAKER_02 19:28

Do the things that make you happy. And I get it, you have a job to do, right? Well, make sure it's something you love. I've already I've already I've already projected this, I've already informed everyone of the future. Big businesses are going to crumble. People are not gonna want to work for organizations that don't give them livelihood, that don't connect with them. It's a bigger freaking picture here and AI, yeah, be careful. It's not knowledge, it's process. Be careful. Um there's data breaches going on everywhere, and I have to say that with AI. This it is what it is. You gotta know your risks and and everyone, your clients and who you work with need to know them too. And it's nerve-wracking. But having the foundations, right? And it's the same with love. You're like, where are you going with this? It's the same with love. You have to have those foundations.

SPEAKER_03 20:52

Does this and it sounds selfish, but does this person fill my cup?

SPEAKER_02 21:00

I mean, unless it's someone who's paying you to do something, or you're doing the work as a humanitarian, right here, both, then yes, you have to. Not sacrifice, but you're healing. But man, you have to replenish. Oh, you have to replenish. Um, I know a lot of healers. I see a lot of healers. Those beautiful humans need to heal themselves. Tree moving for confirmation. Bird flying out of the tree. Confirmation. I see it. I'm a healer of the healers. I know there's a bunch of healers watching me and and listening in. Hey, how you doing? Please come on in, take a seat. Let's talk. We're all one. We're all one. If I say something that makes you feel uncomfortable, good. Think about it. Is everyone right? No. Is everyone wrong? No. There's like fifteen sides to every story if you believe in quantum physics. If you believe in science, it's infinite. It's infinite. I mean absolutely infinite. And love takes stages, and love can be infinite too. But you have to be careful with your energy. You have to do the things that you need to do to reset and rejuvenate. You have to not let them take the light out of you. You should not be with anyone who doesn't go, wow, babe. That's a great idea. Oh wow. You want to have a financial data management practice. Empowering inspiring women. That's amazing. Do you hate men? No, of course I don't hate men. This is something that I feel women diminish themselves far more than men do. I think that's genetics, quite frankly. Um, but who am I? What do I know, right? Yeah, exactly. Thank you, Bertz. Um. They have to fill your cup. They have to like see you for who you are and love it. I haven't felt that. I've always been giving. Giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, giving, give again, give again. A little more. It's like, what the flying. So, taking my power back, I'm sure a lot of people have recognized this. Too bad. Um, I don't care. That's the other thing. You just don't give a shit. You just don't care. No is one complete sentence. Thank you very much. Next. And you just live your damn life. How you see it, how you desire. You're not harming yourself or others. I don't give a flying shit. You wanna walk around, paint your face purple? Go for it. I don't care. Like who gives a shit? People. And people who give a shit are living in fear. So you have to just know in the journey of love who you are, and you have to know who you're dealing with. You're gonna know. You're gonna see them for who they are, and you're gonna know. You have to ground, you have to find your center. That's why everyone's been talking for so long about Eastern medicine and practices and meditation and chakras and all those beautiful things.

SPEAKER_03 25:28

Keep going.

SPEAKER_02 25:31

Um, there's so much wisdom out there for you to seek if you haven't figured out how to go within. So jump on Pele Wellness, P-Y-L-I-Wellness. I gotta obviously, there's an intro right there. Didn't even plan for that. Look at that. Um, please go and take a look. Our library will show you all the different things. That's what it's there for. It's free. It's free. A community that's free, safe, and secure. Who would have thunk? Hmm. You're welcome. We'll have offerings, of course. Yes, that's if you choose. But you gotta sign up. And yes, we're gonna look at who you are. We're gonna screen the shit out of who you are. I know it scares you. Oh well, keeping the junk out. I wanna know who's in there. But it's there, and it's such a blessing. And I'm so blessed to experience love for the first time. I'm so blessed to just live my life now. It begins here.